One of every woman’s dreams in her life is to become a mother. But to become a mother is not an easy process. From conception to giving birth and to be with your child/children while they are growing up until they will have their own family a mother’s support I must say is indispensable. June of 2017, after six months of being married there’s a miracle of life growing inside me. The idea of being pregnant had made me feel excited and scared at the same time. I was not 100% ready at that time and I was afraid if I can really manage to be a mother. But through the help of my husband and our family I started to read books and blogs about pregnancy and watched via social media different stories about pregnancy. I was feeling delightful I didn’t have to experience the morning sickness that others had to go through. The first trimester was not that really bad and I thought that my pregnancy was doing well but on the 16th week the baby’s heart beat suddenly stopped. My heart was broken and I was so low, but life continues as well as work and putting on a courageous face concealed the pain.
After seven months of continuous healing, the second miracle had been sent to us. And now I am on my 10th week. Like on the first pregnancy, I do not have morning sickness but I got a little subtle in smell and on the food that I eat. This time, I have more cravings on different food but I always feel tired and do not have the energy to do the things that I used to do. Same on the first, I am getting the support of my husband and our respective family in taking care of myself and this little spirit on board. Every day I wake up, feeling thankful and praying that this little buddy inside me will grow until he/she is ready to see the world outside my tummy.
One of the most precious gifts that God will bestow us is the gift of life — our future baby. The gift not just for us but for the people around us is waiting for. I will have learned the basics of being a first time mother/parent by next year and of the following years. Having my own baby is not an easy task to learn but I know by leading the right path and from what I have acquired from my own mother I will also be a good mother. When the baby comes, we are going to be a family– a family I can call my own. We will have been going to church as a family like what our family does every Sunday. Parenting is a continuous learning we have to learn and experience. I know what I have suffered for the past year is a minor battle than what other woman have gone through. I will endlessly pray that every woman who will face what I have endured will be blessed like me and will stand up every other fall and try getting back on their feet to move forward. As I read a blog from Julia Jones, a TV personality and blogger have said, “Birth isn’t just about making babies; it’s about making mums too. You are being invited to re-invent yourself because when a baby is born so is a mother. And I’ll let you in on a secret. The birth of a mother can be even more intense than childbirth.”
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